Rain did not stop us from celebrating making it through my first year as a classroom teacher. I survived!
completely-random-probably-makes-no-sense-to-you-rant #452
my guess is you aren't really wondering, but when i think about what i'm not doing right now, i get this painful pang of guilt smack in the middle of my chest. and the painful pang says,
what are you doing? what is so hard about it? why can't you just do it and move on with your life? why can't you get everyone together? what's so hard about the thing you used to be so busy with? why are you guys so quiet?
its really annoying and yet i feel the guilt of not doing more or i guess to be perfectly blunt, i feel the guilt of
not doing anything with that at all. i mean my weekends seem a lot free-er. b and i get to relax and hang out and just decide that day what we want to do. and we get to decide whether we really want to do whatever it is or not. and we either do or don't and either decision is cool and it really only affects him and me. which is really nice. and we aren't bored yet. i asked him the other day,
are you bored not having to deal with that nearly every weekend? and he said, no. and i felt the same way.
sort of.
how i felt was this: sort of like something was missing and it sorta felt weird that it was missing but i didn't really miss that thing i was missing. gets mo? and as deluded i may have been in thinking i was the main person fruitlessly ( and perhaps ineffectively) trying to
rally the troops, after months of holding myself back (and not even really, my last attempt was only last month and turned out to be ill-planned and a big disappointment for me) from "taking the reigns", nothing is still going on. so i figure, why keep trying when the person or persons who really should be doing the rallying,
aren't. and while i'm disappointed that no one has stepped up, i can't blame the new guys coz nobody ever really trained them (whether formally or incidentally) how to rally and get the group together. and i won't blame the few of us "veterans" that are stiill around because a) there's only 3 of us left and b) they are living their lives just like i am.
so, where does that leave me? and where does that leave my 5 year old baby (not a real baby, silly)? i guess anything can happen, but for now, i'm just the anti-organizer-er and am happy with my relatively free weekends and the time i have to be a worker bee (hint hint).
labo, no? heh.
p.s. would you do it
for a prize?
Name these tunes:
(for a prize)
#1
Sisilipin uulitin lang
Aawatin bibigay naman
Sana ay hindi na pinagtagpo
Ng ating Diyos
Tulungan mo ako
Sa tuwing siya ay nakikita
Ako'y nagwawala
Pagkat sa kanyang mga ngiti
Ako'y sumusuko
#2
Pasensya na, kung ako ay umiiyak.
Mababaw lang talaga ang luha ko.
Di ko kayang pigilin ang aking damdamin.
Ba't di ka pa umalis, tumutunog na ang beeper mo.
Pasensya na.
#3
Ale ale ale ale ale ale
Ano ano ano ano an sinasabi
ng baraha ng kapalaran?
gusto kong malaman...
Magkakabahay?
makakalupa?
magtatagumpay
sa negosyong tama?
#4
Kung ang buhay ay isang umagang nakangiti
At ikaw ay ang lupang sinusuyo ng bituin
Di mo man silip ang langit
Di mo man silip ito'y nandirito pa rin
Kung ang lahat ay may katapusan
Itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din
sa paroroonan...
just call me the anti-organizer-er.
actually, don't call me at all. heh.
(yun lang)
It was about time. We (
Cia,
Dex,
Melvin,
B and I) have been talking about all getting together for dinner for what seems forever and we had not been able to get ourselves all together at the same time in years. It took a special gal like
Mto bring us all together, finally! So much fun...thanks to B for the
photos!
Check it out! They used my classroom as a model for many of these pictures on a proper way to set up classrooms for students with autism. I can't point out all the pics from my class but the very first one is from my (super tiny) classroom! Pass this resource along to anyone who might benefit from it...
