Mizz Erna

A bit disappointed I didn't have something better (i.e. something i'm excited to read for people) to read Thursday night but since it was intimate and among friends, I felt okay about reading this thing I wrote nearly 10 years ago that I slightly edited to fit the theme of the reading (which was "spring").It's quite senti even for my taste so bear with me - I was 19!

Spring,
I call for you:
Impatient - my middle name.
Wanting something yesterday
Trying to grasp for infinitesimal tiny gems
Through a rush of running water
Blindfolded.

I know
I need to relish
Each moment each heartache each ecstasy each state of nothingness
Because in each unbearable state is a reminder that I am ALIVE.

The key is to know that every hurt leads to healing.

You answer:
The leaves of a tree do wither away in the fall and winter
But they grow back in the spring
Don’t dwell on when things will get better because
You will never be able to guess when
It will happen when you least expect it
Don’t be so hard on yourself – you will be happy again.
Open yourself to your emotions no matter how difficult they are to bear
Remember each feeling…

You’ve been cutting at trees that appear to be dying,
thinking they are taking up precious space.
The trees are a part of you and soon spring will come
and you’ll see they will bloom again
and nourish you with its fruits.