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Friday, May 31, 2002

Dare I say it? A Malaysian version of maARTe!!?? And they seem to admire Filipino Cinema too:


Filipino cinema is the most developed in the region on two counts: the biggest output and most relaxed censorship. The country makes over 100 features a year. The sexploitation "bomba" films remain popular and many revolve around the live-sex trade; some of the more acclaimed ones have titles like "Burlesk King", "Manila by Night" and "Midnight Dancers." There is also a social-realist strand that fuses melodrama with political agitation, first brought to world attention by the late, brilliant Lino Brocka. The country's most successful female director, the audacious and ambitious Marilou Diaz-Abaya (whose "Jose Rizal" biopic became the highest-grossing Filipino film in history) is an acknowledged influence on our very own Erma Fatima, currently completing her World War 2 drama "Embun."

Distinct from the commercial cinema of Diaz-Abaya and her peers is the experimental work, mainly generated from the Mowelfund Film Institute helmed by Nick Deocampo. It would be a good coup if the Sarawak fest can get hold of Mowelfund alumnus Raymond Red's wonderful and mysterious short, "Anino", which won an award at Cannes last year.


posted by Erna  # 12:30:00 PM
How neat would it be to have a Pinoy version of this and/or this here...hmmm, a future project of Arkipelago?? hmmmmm...with all these organizations now popping up in NY that are doing the same things Arki used to do, it makes me wonder where we can expand to...maybe its our chance to exercise our creative muscle, rather than promotion and organizing muscles...

posted by Erna  # 11:46:00 AM

Thursday, May 30, 2002

I'm lucky to have creatively inspiring friends like V:

So now I have come to a decision this morning. I shouldn't build my life around anyone else's. Kahit sino sa kanila. I have an important thing to do in my life, and that is to create. My life doesn't have to stop just because people came and left. This creator's duty in life is to contribute to the universe by creating. And so once more I accept my responsibility.

posted by Erna  # 1:26:00 AM

Tuesday, May 28, 2002

Updated the side menu...see what I'm attempting to read. I have tons of books that I've brought back from the Philippines, and some I've bought at the AAWW that I have yet to read. I think I'm gonna list out the books I have to still finish and put tpgether a summer reading list. I really need to start reading again, hehe:)

posted by Erna  # 1:35:00 PM

Monday, May 27, 2002

I'm swimming in an ocean of self-doubt. I can't move on my own. It moves me. I tried to fight it at first, of course. Tried to swim to the surface, as anyone who feels the pull of the ocean's force, tugging you down to the bottom. Then you realize that even if you fight it, and try to swim to the top, you are still at the exact spot where you first began to drown. So you wait. And it takes you to the ocean of self-doubt, and through the waves of insecurity. And you forget why you dipped your feet into the water in the first place. So you're there, just trying to swim along in the direction of the waves. And then you stop. You just let the waves take you. I know I'll reach the shore at some point, but I hate that it takes so long before I can get to dry land. I should have worn a bathing suit.

posted by Erna  # 10:37:00 PM

Saturday, May 25, 2002

I don't know if I've ever been truly honest on my blog in the past, but the more I learn about folks offline that read this, the more self-conscious I get about what I write here. No offense, my offline friends. Like other bloggers have done, I've broken many of my self-made rules about having a personal site. No names. Ha. No pictures. Gad. Those are the main things I guess. I started thinking about this when I realized how many different email addresses I had, in a vain attempt to keep my "real" life and "online" life separate. Actually, my numerous emails reflect my sorry attempt to separate my "personal" life, my "online" life, and my "organizing" life. And now that most of you know all three parts of me, for the most part, what's the point? I have this weird rationale that it's okay if people (who are complete strangers - or start off that way) who only know me from this site, know about everything else. It's slightly okay that some people I know offline know about this site. I don't know why I'm so worried about folks that find out about this site via maARTe and Arkipelago. Isn't that silly? Especially now that I write it down? Ewan ko ba.

posted by Erna  # 11:05:00 PM

Friday, May 24, 2002

Okay, I think I've attempted to do this twice, unsuccessfully. But after having lunch with a creatively inspiring friend, I'm eager to try once again. There's this book called The Artist's Way : A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan , that many creatively inspiring folks I've met swear by. The one common downside though is that it's hard to stick to. It's supposedly 12 week (hehe, 12 step, kuno) program that basically helps you unleash your creativity and channel it to something productive. Which is exactly what I've had a struggle with since the last time I was in a creative writing class. This is Amazon's description:


With the basic principle that creative expression is the natural direction of life, Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan lead you through a comprehensive twelve-week program to recover your creativity from a variety of blocks, including limiting beliefs, fear, self-sabotage, jealousy, guilt, addictions, and other inhibiting forces, replacing them with artistic confidence and productivity. This book links creativity to spirituality by showing how to connect with the creative energies of the universe, and has, in the four years since its publication, spawned a remarkable number of support groups for artists dedicated to practicing the exercises it contains.


Why am I telling you? Coz I want you to join me! A little online support helps, no? Let me know if you're interested...and order the book!


posted by Erna  # 3:25:00 PM

Thursday, May 23, 2002

School's over...til Tuesday.


Is it possible to feel totally psyched and positive one minute and then like a totally incompetent fool the next? Or is just me?


P.S. Update your links! Mimi's a voyageur!


posted by Erna  # 5:31:00 PM

Tuesday, May 21, 2002

Aggggh! FILIPINOS IN New York have been prohibited from holding their traditional Independence Day festivities on June 12 following fresh threats of terrorist attack in the United States, a report from radio RMN said.


The biggest gathering of Filipinos on the east coast, cancelled! Just DAYS after we ordered our cool Lapu Lapu shirts to sell to rasie funds for Arkipelago and maARTe! Arghhhh!!


posted by Erna  # 11:28:00 AM

Sunday, May 19, 2002

Busy busy busy...three more days of school...and then a couple of days "free" until...summer school. Aghhhhh! I will have no life for the entire month of June. Not that I go out alot anyway, but I have this one class that goes Monday thru Thursday from 6pm -9pm. B's going back to school too. yay:) And HIS class is M-Th too, from about 7-9pm. Pano na yan!? Hehe, no complaints...we'll work it out...I have three more finals and one paper to do. And I feel like I'm just draggin myself to the end of a marathon. Hehe. I'm not used to thinking this much. Haha. I'm not overly stressed though because I've been very good this semester, its not as if the finals are my final chance to redeem a grade. I just need to get decent marks to maintain what I have. Oh, goodness, I hope I have the strength to see it through...


I observed a 4th grade class last Friday. And this Monday I'm going to observe my friend's 2nd grade class. I've mentioned these kids before. I saw them on Friday because the class I observed was right across and they remembered me. Awww:) They were like, when are you coming to see us? Awwww:) They're so dang cute, even the trouble makers, hehe. Ideally I would spend the entire day with them, but since I already sat in their class in March and I need as much time possible to get everything done, including getting my summer school stuff finalized...Ayayayay...


posted by Erna  # 10:03:00 AM

Friday, May 10, 2002

Got home at nearly 3:30am last night, after watching Ma-Yi's short-run production and then drinks at Silver Swan. Fun, fun, fun.


Some thoughts on the play before I forget, and in case I do a review. The theater was packed. And we made a wrong move in waiting for the folks who were late because by the time we got inside the theater the only seats left were on the aisle!! But I was at an ideal "row" smack in the middle so I was fine with it.


Overall, I loved it. I've seen a few Ma-Yi plays in the past and though many of them are reportedly really good, I think I have had the unfortunate luck to watch the ones that were a bit on the weak side. I won't mention names. heh.


The Romance of Magno Rubio is the story of a short, Filipino farm worker in the central valleys of California in the early 1930s. There was a cast of five actors playing farmworkers (one sometimes a woman!) whose bond was absolutely believable. Unlike past Ma-Yi plays (at least the few that I have seen), I felt this time, all the actors were excellent and the chemistry they had with each other really helpd the believability of their relationships in the story. The stage design was simple, yet beautful. It was basically a bunch of plywood boards standing, with hooks to hang the chairs on. I really liked that everything on stage was used. In many scenes (and in various ways!), the actors would use the chairs but while the chairs hung on the wooden boards as "decor", it gave depth to the simple stage set up. Equally effective was the light design and the the barbed wire that separated the audience from the actors on stage. One could easily interpret the barbed wire (which was basically 4-5 well-spaced out metal wires going from one end of the stage to the other, so you could still view the actors easily) as a symbol of the oppressive conditions of the farmworkers. At the same time, at the very beginning of the play, the actors come off the stage (which was on level with the audience) to stand in front of the barbed wire and then return to the stage. There's a rhythm present througout the play. One can't help but feel this rhythm in the dialogue, when they sing, and when they have a "jam session" with their farm tools (the "tools" are actually Kali sticks.). I was particularly struck by the amount of Tagalog (and some Bisaya!) in the play. Ma-Yi doesn't necessarily cater to a Tagalog speaking audience, and I knew there were many non-Tagalog speakers in the audience so my eyes and ears perked up. I really paid attention to the scenes where a lot of Tagalog was spoken and I have to say they did a pretty good job pulling it off. The actors were very good at either acting out the Tagalog words they would say through physical gestures or the intonation. The danger, I've found, in using Tagalog for an non-Tagalog speaking audience, is to over do the translations within the dialogue. Saying Kamusta, how are you or Kain na, let's eat can get pretty tiresome and distracting if you use that technique too much. The play did a fine job creating the balance.They were actually pretty conservative in doing so. I can only recall one scene when they explicitly did that, but it was part of the storyline where someone was dictating a letter in Tagalog to be translated to English so it worked really well. I think they could have afforded to do that a little bit more, maybe 15% more, especially the parts where the Tagalog dialogue was just too hilarious (especially one of the fight scenes where a character(s?) says Puuuu-tttttaaaannnnng-iiiiiiiina-mooooooo in slow motion.) to be limited to the privileged few who could understand it. Then again, there's always something lost in the translation. I would be content to having a translation, in the program, of the beautifully performed Tagalog songs they sing to give the audience member a deeper understanding after the play. On the downside, the accents employed by the actors were not very consistent. There would be scenes where the accent would be complete gone. At first I thought it was happening because they were stepping out of their roles as characters and became narrators (which they actually did from time to time) but there were scenes in which they were clearly supposed to be "in character" where the accent was lost. Also, I usually cringe when non-Tagalog or Bisayan actors try to imitate the accent but the actors in this play did a pretty good job. I was really impressed and pleasantly surprised. The scenes in which the actors come together in a chorus dialogue were usually good, but not entirely consistent. The rhyming and chorus dialogues could have come dangerously close to being corny, but for the most part it strengthened the play. I really loved how the play (whether it was through the dialogue or the actors themselves, I can't decide) was able to make me really empathize for Magno Rubio so that the jokes that may have been hilarious at the start of the play, slowly becomes bittersweet, sad, and eventually just plain mean. They were able to make you laugh out loud in one scene and simultaneously break your heart. The innovative staging, the talented actors, the simple yet effect set all come together to make it one of the strongest productions of Ma-Yi that I have seen. The current production is supposed to be just a workshop production, that is developing for something bigger in the fall. I can't wait to see how it develops.


posted by Erna  # 11:44:00 AM

Thursday, May 09, 2002

Oooh, fellow Arki member, Jodi has her own domain. You GO! She is still accepting submissions of original illustrations for her Sci-Fi section. She needs more women, not to mention Pinoys in general, to represent!

posted by Erna  # 1:59:00 AM

Wednesday, May 08, 2002

I think I coined a term today, but correct me if I'm wrong:

Crabber: one who practices crab mentality, a crab in a basket pulling down the crabs that are close to the surface.


I thought we coined artivist (one who uses art to promote positive social change) from a few maARTe issues ago,
but then I went to Artivist.com, translated it via babelfish and saw that they had the same/similar definition (weird translation due to babelfish's limitations - but it's still a pretty cool service):


Artivist knows that the visual arts, beautiful art, arts of the forms and the colors, are the sure and qualified witnesses prehistoric and ancient bases of the human condition. They are also the voices of the silence of the history.


Artivist as knows, and wants to let it know, as art under appearances of ancestral cultural differences, has in oneself invaluable, irrecusable and alive common denominators.
The gallery is places of convocation where works can make known to us enchantements of the vision. It is the place of an emergence of oneself which an always renewed esthetics wants to lead to its current ends in completed works of the Masters.


posted by Erna  # 9:05:00 PM
I'm bored and feeling generous:


Who wants a Two Wongs... and No Brides... sticker? I'll send one of each to the first six people to email their address. This does not include G, Kiko, Cynthia, Ari, Steffy and Heidi, who have already taken the liberty of requesting them from me - no double requests, ha?!! :) If you tell me how maarte you are or what you think of the word maarte, i might throw in another sticker or two...


posted by Erna  # 8:22:00 PM

Tuesday, May 07, 2002

Belated welcome to Heidiologies! The Dekarabaw household is growing steadily...check out who else joined the ride...



posted by Erna  # 10:55:00 AM

Sunday, May 05, 2002

Today was so awesome. Just like last year, the stickers were extremely popular, but whereas last year's fave was the "No Brides, But We Can Mail Order a Boot Up your Ass!" stickers, this year, for some, hmm, I dunno, odd reason, this one ran out, and even then, people were still coming to the table asking for them:




Hah, go figure.


Oh and I got to meet Marie in person, who was volunteering with Gabnet! Hi! :) B also introduced me to Dexter Cruz, who hopefully will join the Arki gang next week when we watch Ma-Yi's latest offering...


posted by Erna  # 8:39:00 PM

Saturday, May 04, 2002

I know you're probably sick of all this school talk but...that's what the links on the side are for haha...


So the plan was, after the poster presentation was over with, I was gonna put all my energy on the paper and presentation on Monday. Which is a sound plan if you have the energy. And brain cells. All day yesterday I felt this steady pounding in my head, but didn't really have time to take care of it. Trying to finish the presentation, but foolishly chatting with buddies online, I just had no time to take care of myself. Know what I mean? And that's not good. Some people can handle that kind of self-deprivation, but I can't. So when I got home from school today I took some Alleve, vegged in front of the TV for an hour, had lunch. Got online for a little bit, then took a lovely 3 hour nap. Woke up, headache was gone. I think got some brain cells back. I'm kinda sick of school right now, so though I will probably regret it tomorrow, I'm going to refrain from working on school stuff tonite. I'm gonna try to do some maARTe stuff and prepare for tomorrow. I'm really excited about this issue. B is working feverishly on it with G's (movable type guru) help and I swear I think the excitement is contagious. Just in the last few days we've gotten new stuff to add to the issue. H (when are you going live!?!) has been inspired with a couple of pieces for maARTe. And I think people are gonna love S's contributions as well. And more folks are coming on board...its all so heartening...I really can't wait to show you. It's taking all my strength to restrain myself from giving you guys a preview. But I'll wait. The countdown begins. Hehe.


posted by Erna  # 9:18:00 PM

Friday, May 03, 2002

Arkipelago's Brainfood Session at DragonFly with Jilly Canizares (of FilAm Arts) last night was great! It was so inspiring to meet a fellow arts administrator (kapal ko no?) who was as focused and dedicated as her. I just feel a little bad that not everyone had a chance to talk with her, especially those who came representing other Pinoy arts groups. The thing is she struck me as the kind of person that doesn't float around a room to socialize. If you have a chance to talk to her, she's talking to you and all the focus is on your conversation. You know those rare kinds of people that make you feel that you're the only one in a crowded room? Ganon siya. Which is great if you're the one talking to her, and not so great if you came to an event expecting to meet her. We've been doing these casual "brainfood sessions" for a while now, yet it was only last night that I literally felt I was picking someone's brain. Hehe. I felt like we had an instant mentoring session right there. She was so supportive and generous in sharing her own experiences and suggestions for the group. And I didn't feel like she was trying to tell us what to do either. Hehe. It helped that she had been with a group similar to Arkipelago and could draw from when her organization was at the very stage Arki is in right now. Anyways, I don't mean to gush, but last night was truly meaningful for me. I just had to get that down on "paper."


Okay, back to work - one poster presentation for elementary math class on Saturday (my topic: "Art + Math = Infinite Possibilities!) which I'm actually having fun putting together, and Monday's presentation - a proposal for a parent involvement program at an early childhood preschool. Ack. That one is really stressing me out.


Of course school work won't even come close to tearing me away from this Sunday's CAPA Fest. If you're in the NYC area, come look for the Arkipelago table! Alright?! Free stickers!


posted by Erna  # 1:07:00 PM

Wednesday, May 01, 2002

I was gonna write how relieved I was to get three major papers/assigments out of the way. But then I looked at my schedule and see that I have three four more major papers/assignments to go (two of which are presentations, argh!) plus those 2 3 stinkin' finals. I'm not even including tomorrow's "mini-assigment" and the graded class discussion I have coming up as well. You WILL be surprised to note that I am not complaining either. Ha. Just stressed:) I'm realizing how much "nerdier" I am this time around in school. I mean that in the nicest sense of the word. Hehe. Nerdy as in, "Oh, gad what if I don't get an A?!". I don't think I was like this in college, or even high school. I was always striving to pass and quite content with passing grades. I think I was too intimidated in college to even think I could get As in class. That was silly of me. I think my expectations are higher because, hello, I'm going to need all this knowledge coz I'm going into this career, no?! Yun lang. There's a more specific purpose to my studies. Usefulness is definitely a bigger motivator than a degree.


Though it's for class, I'm currently enthralled by Lisa Delpit's Other People's Children. I feel like I'm underlining the entire book. Here's a quote:

Precisely becasue of their subtlety and indirectness, these modern forms of prejudice and avoidance are hard to eradicate....many whites remain unconvinced of the reality of subtle prejudice and dicrimination, and come to think of their black coworkers as "terribly touchy" and overly sensitive" to the issue.For such reasons, the modern forms of prejudice frequently remain invisible even to its perpetrators.
We're supposed to have a graded class discussion of the book. I don't know how the hell my teacher is going to handle that. He said he purposely chose this book because of the controversey surrounding it. I can already feel the tension building. I predict the white students (who currently congregate on the right side of the room, no joke) will be up in arms, using euphemisms for people of color being "too sensitive" and the non-white students and the token white female radical (who currently congregate to the left side of the room, haha) defending Delpit's statements. Racist predictions? Maybe it's the stress talking. We'll see. I would like to be wrong, but the way class discussions have been going so far this semester, I doubt I'm too off the mark.


posted by Erna  # 12:42:00 AM

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