Portion of a note i sent my special someone. I'll spare you the corny parts, hehe:
I want to tell you how happy I am to be where I am today. I'm so happy that I had a great experieince for my first site observation. I can confirm now that I love kids! It's so exciting to re-learn this! It tells me that going back to school to be a teacher was the right decision. It's a really good feeling. Keep this note so you can show me this when I'm not feeling so great about all this. I know there will be those sorts of days [in the future]. I'm still a little scared about the prospect of actually dealing with the severely and multiply disabled kids. But right now, at this very moment, I know I can do this because my heart is in it.
So the past two days, I've spent (a mere) 5 hours at a preschool for children with special needs as required by one of my classes this semester. The first day, I was terrified walking in there. I left that day reluctantly but with glee. I was afraid I would hate it. I was afraid I would do something stupid. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to connect with the kids. I mean, I really didn't have too - I was there just to observe. But I was afraid I would not be liked by the kids and afraid I wouldn't like them. The first day, i was soooo reluctant to leave, you don't even know. I read stories to a couple of the kids. They wouldn't allow me NOT to connect with them. It was such a great feeling. I adored the kids. I loved the classroom. By the second and last day, I was so sad to have to leave and say goodbye to them. Even feeling sad felt good. Know what I mean?
