Okay so, this is why I was a wreck this morning. Not 10 minutes into getting to work, I'm bawling (quietly) at my desk because my friend (who was gonna meet up with me to help me prep for the interview this Friday) realized how busy this week was going to be for her and probably could not meet with me to gimme a boost before my interview. You don't know how important it was for me to be able to meet up with her.
Pathetically, I feel like I screwed up my last interview due to my lack of confidence. I was totally down-playing what I've done in the jobs I've had. And why? I have no idea why. What the &@#! is wrong with my head. You're suppose to "sell" yourself at an interview, right? Agh. I can't, I just can't.
And I know if I want to get out of this sucky job I'm gonna have to sell myself, or at least believe in myself enough that I'll impress them with my confidence, experience and skills. Ack, I gag writing that down. I can't do it. Yeah, I've done stuff, but its done, why bring it up. See? This is the mess i'm living with: Mr. Low-Self Esteem, kick-myself- while -i'm- down, etc.
And because I can't afford to let this esteem issue screw me up in getting the job, I need your help. If you think I'm a decent human being, send me email, sign my gbook, and make my head explode. Boost my ego, please, at least for this week. Next week, I'll give you the pin to burst my bubble to bring back down to loser land.
If you're too lazy to make contact, send me good, positive vibes of self-confidence on Friday, okay? Me will lab you long time. Thanks. :)
