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Mizz Erna

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Monday, December 04, 2000

So much for my 3 second long dreams of super stardom on the stage. HA! I blanked out on a whole line! I must have the worst memory ever created...


Why is it so much easier to snuggle into the warm and comfortable trap...err...bed of self-pity than to rise up to the seemingly unattainable mountain peak of self-confidence?


B. was momentarily pissed at me coz all I could remember from the show was messing up big time. Eh, I can't help it! I'm my own worst critic. I'll kick me down before you can even come close. I guess it's my own twisted form of self-defense.


Which is why I have a bad feeling about the job. I don't know, I just don't know. The only feeling I can get with respect to the position is negative. I try to fight it, but it's the only gut feeling that seems to linger. So, I guess I'll be at my crappy (even crappier now, coz I know what's out there!) job for the time being. When will another opportunity like this come to me again? Am I just destined for mediocrity?


posted by Erna  # 11:31:00 AM
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